Solo pensando y conociendo

After a long time without seen my secret love, I still think about him.

Weird is this feeling because tonight I felt connect it to him, again.

I don't hate him or miss him because the love that I have is still the same.

I don't write like I used to but he is still my inspiration.

I wonder if he miss me or ask to his pillow about me all I know is that

I love him.

I wish I could fix the mistakes that we made in the past,

I wish I could kiss your lips one more time,

I wish I could move on like you did,

but I can't.

December 07, 2010

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

‎"Ya no se si hacerle caso al corazon o la razon,

solo se que mi corazon me engaña

y se esta enamorando,

mientras que la razon juega

a ser fuerte para no caer en la trampa del amor".

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

October 01, 2010

"Mi Señor...

Ayúdame a decir la verdad delante de los fuertes y a no decir mentiras para ganarme el aplauso de los débiles

Si me das fortuna, no me quites la razón.

Si me das éxito, no me quites la humildad.

Si me das humildad, no me quites la dignidad.

Ayúdame siempre a ver la otra cara de la medalla, no me dejes inculpar de traición a los demás por no pensar igual que yo.

Enséñame a querer a la gente como a mí mismo.

No me dejes caer en el orgullo si triunfo, ni en la desesperación si fracaso.

Más bien recuérdame que el fracaso es la experiencia que precede al triunfo.

Enséñame que perdonar es un signo de grandeza y que la venganza es una señal de bajeza.

Si me quitas el éxito, déjame fuerzas para aprender del fracaso.Si yo ofendiera a la gente, dame valor para disculparme y si la gente me ofende, dame valor para perdonar.

¡Señor...si yo me olvido de tí, nunca te olvides de mí!"

Preciosa Oracion .

The only one that is in my dreams is you.
I wish to be yours and not his.
I wish to kiss your lips and not his.
And i wish to get married with you and not him.
I meant it my heart is still yours.
I love you.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
September 25, 2010.

No puedo dormir y no he comido nada desde ayer a las 12:23pm. Ya creo que no se cuantas pruebas Dios me mandara. Me duele el pecho y mis ojos ya no tienen lagrimas para llorar.
Me usaron y me humillaron, miles de cosas me han pasado por la mente y solo me puedo refugiar en la musica y en la oracion, porque ya no puedo bailar y ya no puedo cantar siento que me quitaron una parte de mi, me siento muerta y nadie sabe por que solo se que yo no puedo dormir tengo la mente cargada de pensamientos negativos, pero mi corazon no me permite tampoco descansar, esto es algo horrible.
Como es que una persona puede ser tan cruel y jugar con los sentimientos de otros individuos sin saber como es esa persona o lo que ha pasado. Me siento muy mal porque a nadie le he hecho mal, solo bien y siempre brindo lo mejor de mi. Oh Dios estoy sufriendo ayudame a encontrar consuelo que por mas fuerte que aparento ser soy debil, soy humana.
Las cosas duelen mas cuando no tienes a nadie junto a ti ni siquiera a tu madre al lado, el dolor es mas agudo y sientes como que el pecho se te quiere salir, momentos asi no los quisiera vivir otra vez. Amo mi vida por Jesus quien vive en mi pero siempre me pregunto porque siempre pasa lo mismo. No es justo.
Estoy desconsalada y me siento fatal tengo frio, tengo mareos y sobretodo un fuerte dolor de cabeza. ya no puedo mas, ya no tengo animos, ya ni siquiera tengo esperanzas, se llevaron lo ultimo que me quedaba y no les remordio la conciencia.
Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
September 09, 2010

Es gracioso escribir mis locuras, mis pasiones y marcar mis sentimientos o deseos en cada uno de mis pensamientos escritos y plasmados en un blog o en mis notas.
Yo solo quiero encontrar algo que en realidad ya no existe, a mi no me interesa llamar la atencion de nadie porque lo unico que me importa es escribir, pero al final me doy cuenta de que eso que tanto busco nunca lo encontrare.
Lo que tanto busco y anhelo es tu corazon. He luchado para alejar este sentimiento tan fuerte que tengo pero eres tan ciego que nunca has notado lo que siento.
Promesas van, promesas vienen, pero cuando las cumpliras.
Nunca exigo nada, ni siquiera critico tus faltas, pero hasta cuando mi corazon esperara.
Te escucho,
Te comprendo,
Te doy hasta lo que no tengo,
Pero tu corazon es lo que busco y anhelo.
Sacrificios han sido muchos y lagrimas se han vueltos rios, pero nunca recibo una respuesta.
Sueños e ilusiones todos tenemos pero cuando se cumpliran.
Me ilusionas y me dejas caer de golpe y quien esta ahi para curar mis heridas y sanar mis golpes, nadie.
Al fin siempre quedo sola, solo con la ilusion de que vienes y te vas.
Que hago?, que digo?, A quien amo? Si en verdad ni siquiera se que sientes tu.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
August 21 2010.

There is no more pain in my heart , my heart is beating again.
You, you were part of my life then.
Now, you are my whole life.
Desperate, alone, heartbroken, I was.
I hide my pain with a smile and make up, but it was not enough.
I wanted to escape, runaway, but the pain in my chest got worst.
I waited, I cried, and felt empty, so I pray, the best thing that I did.
God, you made me stronger even when I went through a lot of bad moments,
I pray and you were here.
You gave me a lot good things and you took away
the bad or the ones that were not meant to be, so I give thanks and I pray.
I am alone, but I don't feel alone because you are here, so I pray.
I pray for my soul, for myself, for my sins, for my good and bad momenrs in life.
I pray for my friends and no friends.
I know that I am not a saint, I know that I am not evil, either.
But, when I pray for each of you I feel better.
I keep my faith in Him because He have faith in me.
I am a new person and I feel free when I talk and listen to Him.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

July 19, 2010

"Sonrío porque Cristo me sonríe, Amo porque Cristo, me ama. Todo mi mundo es para El y su mundo algún día sera para mi. Vivo porque Cristo vive en mi y hago el bien porque Cristo reina en mi". Andry A.V.

The Greatest moment in my life are:
a) When I pray and talk to Jesus,
b) When I talk with on the phone with my family, especially my mother and my Grandpa,
c) When I pray for u,
d) When I see my family and friends smile,
e) When I share a moment with family
f) When I help others without expecting nothing else.

Nobody can't compare these moments with anything, I love God, my family and friends no matter what happen between us the bond is already there. I love my life because I am unique and original. I am very proud of being the person that I am and I thank to God, my mother, and my grandpa to make feel happy, strong and complete each day. I am proud of myself.

Andry Vilorio A.V.

June 27, 2010

I wonder if you think about me like I do every night.
I wonder if you remember me like I do every time that I feel alone.
Oh my love, you used to make me smile even if my world was falling apart.
I miss your body laying in bed next to mine, your beautiful eyes are still in my mind,
Your candy lips were my favorite and I still can feel them touching mine.
Oh my love, why have you become so difficult to forget?.
I have a serious problem, I can't stop thinking about you!
Why is this happening to me!?
Now, my heart and my mind have become my enemies,
They are against me because I try to forget you,
But you are still living deep inside of me.
Expectations I have a lot, all I want is to see you, all I want is to be with you.
But, I won't ever see you, the reality is cruel.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

June 16, 2010

I guess that we all miss the good times @ the Centro Pedagogico Infantil Maria Montessori or @ the Colegio Serafin de Asis and some others Colegios. Good times that we will never forget. we learn a lot from those institutions and we're glad of being the people that we are, today. We dreamt, we laughed, we cried, we fought and we made friends. Look at us now, we have become grow ups and God was with us everyday, he gave us the strength to go forward and achieve our goals in life. He is still with us, so we should thankful.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

June 04, 2010

I gave up to this love that I feel, but I can't fight it because is there inside my heart. I did everything, but now it's too late I fell in love. I let myself go and I love you until the end. I still love you, but you are blind. I am trying to forget you, but it's impossible because every time that I turn you are there. My heart is weak and sensitive. My heart cry everyday for you love, but you are not there for him. I fight with this feeling, but it's hard to move on. I resign to any chances, but my feelings play for the wrong team, yours.

June 01, 2010

Andry Vilorio (A.V)

Last night I felt love and it was more than just a hug.
Who are you? Where you came from?
Your smile, your eyes and your touch made me feel weak and vulnerable.
Your arms around me, so strong, make me almost faint.
But your touch, just your simple touch move my heart.
Last night was the moment that was waiting. It was the crucial time to let myself go with yours kisses and your voice oh sweet melody to my ears, melt my soul.
It was just one night, but you didn't ask for no more.
The passion was limited, but it was a wonderful experience. We didn't make love, but our kisses told everything.
And here I am surround by your arms waiting for the sunrise. I feel tranquility and everything is calm. He said in a low sweet tone you are the one and kiss me again.
All I can say is I am in heaven or I just arrived home.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
May 20, 2010.

Corazón dime quien sera el verdadero dueño tuyo, confusiones vienen a mi mente.
Que hermoso paisaje observo a traves de mi ventana, pero tu no te decides todavia.
Ah tonto corazón cuando te daras cuenta de la situacion por la que estoy pasando.
Conciencia por favor dime que hare con el corazón que se a puesto testaduro.
Creo que mi locura y mis sentimientos estan en desacuerdo.
Dios mio, dime que hare para que mi conciencia y mi corazón lleguen a una decision.
Decisiones y decisiones tengo que tomar a diario pero esta vez resulta dificil.
Creo que me estoy enamorando y esta vez tengo miedo.
Miedo al desamor o dar mi corazón.
Pero al final tendre que tomar una decision o no?
Ya que el corazón y la conciencia no se ponen decuerdo entonces se lo dejare al tiempo.
El tiempo es quien se encarga de definir este dilema.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
May 16, 2010

I miss us,
I miss our romantics nights, and
I miss our flirtatious days
I miss to be in your arms
I have never complaint about us,
I miss your calls or your text just saying "Andry"
or "what's up"
I wonder if I am in your heart?
I wonder if you miss us?
I wonder if I am part of you?
I just want to keep our romance alive.
I just want to fall more for you
I just want to be there for you
My only complaint is that I can't hate you
because it is too late, I love you.
And don't want to lose the meaning of us.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

April 21, 2010

Today I found myself and I don't need to be sad.
Today I started to enjoy my loneliness again,
I think that I lost the whole concept of being Andry
I am happy, perky,positive, shy, easygoing, and calm
I wanted to be perfect and good, but in the way I got lost.
I didn't smile anymore, and I didn't feel comfortable with myself.
I was just a character manage by people.
I left myself behind to please everybody, but nobody was there for me.
I hate hypocrisy, I hate fake friends...
I have realized that the person who loves me will accept me as I am
because I got tired of accepting everybody with their goods things and defects.
I have realized that I'll wait longer before to express my feelings for somebody.
I have realized that I won't make the same mistakes that committed in the past.
I have realized that I have nobody who got my back, and that I have only myself.
So, why should I waist my time in people, when I have myself.
why should I waist my love with men that won't appreciate it, even don't express their feelings, when I know that I deserve better.
why should I waist my energy working in a place that I don't feel happy anymore, when I have the potential and the knowledge to get another job.
It sounds cruel, but some people want to be raw with their words, why should I be the exception.
I have my knowledge, I have my heart full of love and I have myself, so I don't need to care about the people that wants to put me down, or people that gossip about me because all I can say is those people have envy of what I have and who I am.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
April 26, 2010

What is wrong with me?
I can't stop think about about you.
I try hard to get you of my mind sometimes,
but the desire to have you is stronger every day.
Nervous, exciting, silly, happy, joyful all emotions
are combined when you are next to me.
I feel like a teenager and weird at the same time.
It is funny, but it is something I can't help it.
I think that I am dreaming, I guess I am.
All I can say this is one the most wonderful moments in my life.
I am not perfect, I am just human, and I am in love.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
April 18, 2010

"Oh love, love let be in your arms once again, so I can fall more for you,
my heart is yours,
oh love, love be my life, my light, my joy and my happiness,
my mind is yours,
Every day I think of you and every night I am missing you,
my body is yours,
oh love, love draw with your hands the lines of my body,
I am completely yours,
oh love, love wake me up from this dream with a kiss,
and say I love you."

Andry Vilorio A.V.
April 16, 2010

"I am so confused. I thought that I was happy, but today I just found out that I am sad and more lonely than ever. I have a big heart, but I don't know who should I trust it. I guess that I should not open my heart so much because I feel that someone could break it."

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

Marzo 25, 2010

Tears are coming out and my heart started already to beat slow.
I feel hurt and confused because you were my happiness,
happiness that didn't last as always.

I knew that something so beautiful could hurt me so much.
I knew that something so magical could end like this.
The most wonderful secret adventure that I live with you
has become I guess to at end.

I can't believe it that once again I was in a relationship by myself.
And that you still like that girl. You show that to me with your
paranoid behavior.

A.V.

Marzo 22, 2010

Your eyes are the most beautiful lights that I have ever seen,
your lips are the sweetest thing that I have ever tasted,
your arms strong and warm make me feel save and loved.

You are the best secret that I ever kept.

When I am with you, I feel a lot of emotions combine in one feeling.
I still don't know what it is, but I feel that happiness is around
with you next to me.

You are the best secret that I ever kept.

My only desire is to be yours.
I want to be your muse,
your happiness,
your doubt,
your love,
your friend,
your dream,
your passion.
Every person around the world has big expectations from life and the future,
but I don't expect to much.
I guess that all I want right now is to enjoy every moment good or bad with you,
my best secret ever kept.

Andry Vilorio A.V.

Marzo 16, 2010

"I feel bless because God gave me the strength to over come from the adversity. I thank him because he bless me with a mother who has been there for me even the distance keep us apart. Also I thank him for giving me the chance to love again."

Andry Vilorio A. V.

Marzo 18, 2010

Como me siento? no lo se.
Creo que hoy en dia siento un sentimiento de odio y rencor.
Rencor y odio que siento que crece cada dia mas.
Cada dia era un sacrificio y hoy me di cuenta de que es un sacrificio
en vano.
Nadie sabe como en verdad yo soy y muchos se equivocan al juzgarme.
Cansada estoy de que estupidos lleguen a mi vida y cuando estan conmigo
buscan entonces a alguien mas. Yo valgo mucho como persona para que un asaroso me desprecie. Paginas de poemas inventan dedicadas a mi sin darse cuenta que en realidad solo buscan ligar a otras. Y molesta estoy conmigo misma por perder mi tiempo y dos años de mi vida con una persona que solo dolores de cabeza me dio. Hoy me siento molesta porque estoy cansada de estos malditos pendejos no me dan mi lugar como persona en la sociedad y protesto ante Dios porque ya no quiero sufrir por la causa de una persona injusta y falta de respeto. Mientras que uno como persona se conserva y hace sacrificios grandes, uno mismo se sorprende de las vagabunderia de la gente.
Cansada como escritora estoy, de escribir poemas que en verdad no tienen sentido.
No tienen sentido porque me he dado cuenta de que no vale la pena escribir por amor y menos a un hipocrita.
Hipocrita, si lo digo porque tanto luchar para nada, esto es una mierda.

Andry Vilorio (A.V)

February 27, 2010

Mi vida se hizo para el placer tuyo y que disfrutaras cada rincón de esta.
Esto es solo unos de los simples pensamientos que infunden desde lo mas profundo de mi corazón y solo mi corazón sabrá a quien corresponderle en su debido tiempo.
Noches y noches llevo esperando a que un encuentro nos lleve a descubrir algo que todavía para mi es desconocido.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

Febrero 23, 2010

Para que celebrar el dia del amor, si yo no tengo un amor.
Porque tengo que seguir fingiendo algo que ni siquiera siento.
A veces decir un te amo no es suficiente, con sin besarte ya
para mi es un trago amargo.
Vivo a diario pensando de como sera mi vida contigo y como sera
mi vida sin ti.
Lo calculo, lo pienso, lo analizo, pero no saco buena conclusión
de ello, solo confusión y tristeza.
A medida que voy creciendo y que voy madurando, voy conociéndome mas y
puedo ver que mi vida siempre ha sido solitaria y aislada.
Vivo lejos de todo y de todos aunque me tengan cerca y todavía me pregunto
quien soy? o que llegare hacer con mi vida?
He tenido pocos logros y demasiado decepciones en la vida para decir que
algún día encontrare el amor.
La tristeza que invade mi corazón es mas grande que mi misma personalidad
y a diario vivo y duermo con ella.
Nadie pero nadie podrá entender quien soy de verdad hasta el día de mi descanso
eterno, pero eso si todavía me falta mucho por aprender.
Ojala algún día llegue yo a gozar de la dicha de disfrutar de un amor pleno
y puro, sin personas a mi alrededor que quieran controlar mis sentimientos y
emociones.
Ojala llegue el día en que yo sea correspondida honestamente por esa persona
desconocida que no ha llegado a mi vida pero que en su momento llegara,
mientras tanto yo por mi parte no tengo porque celebrar un día que para mi no existe.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

Febrero 12, 2010

If I were inventing false stories that I would not have friends,

If I were telling lies and pretend to be innocent, believe me I would not see the truth.

Many criticize me for my personality, but what they do not understand is that when something bothers me, I will tell you, now if I write something a few public will be bother.

It’s good to say about me that I fake innocence to call everyone attention, but note that talking to me and treating like whatever, one day has to be paid.

Of course, not on my behalf, but there is a God who sees all and therefore I say that I do not have to lie to make me look like the victim of something.

I did have learned the lesson, is true not everyone is like me, and many people will wonder how I am. It is easy, I think that I apologize too much with everybody even when I don’t have to; my other weakness is that I take care about others no matter what even if they don’t deserve it. Sometimes I have to stay awake helping someone, and there are other times that I had to sit in a restaurant or a bar to hear many secrets or problems.

But at the end, I’m the bad one, if I tell the truth I am the bad one, and if I do not want to talk then I am the bad one.

When I see how people act cowardly and stupidly, I prefer walk way and keep my distance because I can not stand hypocrisy. If I have to be taking crap from people to have a friend then I say no. I prefer to walk alone instead of being a friend of people that are hypocrites that when they don’t feel good about themselves and you act in a caring way they speak in a mean and evil way without cause or reason. Or sometimes if you don’t want to talk about a specific topic then they say that you are a childish person. Then when I react, I am the bad one.

I n this life I lost a lot and more valuable things that a small group of people who are hypocrites, and when I see that something it may cause me a threat I prefer to avoid things. I have no fear, but I see that nowadays some people doesn’t have an ounce of sense and acknowledge about their mistakes that they made.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

Febrero 07, 2010

Si yo estuviera inventando historias falsas creo que no tuviera amigos,
Si yo estuviera diciendo mentiras y privando en inocente creo que ni la verdad la viera.
Muchos me critican por mi forma de ser pero lo que no entienden es que cuando me molesta algo lo digo, ahora si publico o escribo algo algunos se molestan.
Es muy bueno decirme que yo privo en pendeja o inocente para llamar la atencion de las personas, pero date cuenta que el que me habla mal y me trata como le da su gana un dia lo tiene que pagar.
Claro no por mi parte sino que hay un Dios que todo lo ve y por eso digo que no tengo porque mentir para hacerme ver como la victima de algo.
Yo a fuerza he aprendido la leccion, es cierto no todo el mundo es igual que yo, y muchos se preguntaran como soy. Es sencillo me disculpo con la gente demasiado, mi otro defecto es que me gusta cuidar y proteger del projimo, muchas veces ayudo a quien menos se lo merece y hasta amanezco resolviendole problemas a las personas que muy poco se lo merecen. Es tanto asi que he tenido que sentarme en un restaurante o un bar a escuchar a muchos sus secretos o sus problemas.
PERO, al final de cuentas yo soy la mala, si bromeo soy la mala, si te hablo con la verdad soy la mala, y si no te quiero hablar entonces yo soy la mala.

Yo cuando veo actitudes cobardes y estupidas me alejo no soporto tener a personas hipocritas a mi alrededor y mas a personas que tu le tienes que aguantar toda su maldita vagabunderia para que sea tu amigo, pues no. Yo mejor dejo de hablarle a muchos y me quedo sola, porque duele mas ser amigo de gente hipocrita que cuando no se sienten bien con ellos mismos prefieren hablarte mal y te gritan sin motivo ni razon, a veces te dicen que eres infantil solo porque no quieres hablar de un tema. Entonces yo soy la mala.

En esta vida he perdido mucho y he perdido cosas mucho mas valiosas que un grupito de gente que son hipocritas, y lo que yo mas trato es de ni siquiera acercarme y evitar las cosas, no por miedo, sino porque a veces la gente tiene que tener al menos dos dedos de frente y reconocer sus errores a tiempo para no hablar mierda de mas.

Andry Vilorio (A. V.)

Enero 31, 2010

"La tristeza no se refleja en las lagrimas, sino en la sonrisa, porque en ella ocultamos lo que en verdad nos afecta."

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

Enero 17, 2010

Porque siempre apareces y desapareces de mi vida dejando mi corazón lleno de dolor.
Te he amado desde el primer día que hasta hoy no consigo olvidarte.
Porque te has convertido en mi debilidad, eres mi kriptonita y cada vez que te veo me haces sentir débil. Y me pregunto a mi misma porque no puedo ser fuerte cuando apareces y desapareces.
Te he buscado en otros labios que he besado y en cada rostro que he acariciado, pero tu fantasma todavía sigue vigente en mi mente.
He intentado mentirte para alejarte de mi, pero no puedo mentirle a mi corazon que ha llorado tanto tu abandono y tu rechazo.
Alguna vez te has detenido a pensar en mi, como a veces lo hago yo.
Porque nunca me has amado o porque nunca has intentado amarme.
Te he amado tanto que he aceptado el perderte una y otra vez.
Te he perdido siempre de la manera mas estúpida porque mi corazón esta ya esta acostumbrado.
Han pasado ya 5 años y aunque te miento y te oculto el fuerte sentimiento que siento por ti, todavía no logro ser valiente ante ti y decirte de una vez "intenta amarme".
Solo recibo de ti excusas estúpidas y ni siquiera lo intentas.
No se si soy hermosa, tampoco se si soy graciosa, pero si tengo corazón e inteligencia, para amar.
Se que no soy perfecta y que toda mi vida es un drama de novela, pero creo que al menos he sido la unica que te ha amado de verdad. Tal vez por eso es que nunca he logrado que me quieras y me ames de verdad.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

Enero 16, 2010

Hi mi gente,

Everybody who is in this email knows me, some hates me and some loves me. But, today I am writing because I have a big petition.
I want that you guys and girls become one and let's pray for those people who lost their families and friends in Haiti. Also let's pray for the victims who still are stuck in the piles of concrete. And let's pray all together for the Bahamas, and the Major Antilles who received since yesterday a tsunami alert. I hope everybody has received this message, but once again don't forget to pray for the ones who needs at least consolation through this moments of pain.


En Español,
A todos los que estan en este email me conocen, algunos me odian, otros me aprecian. Pero hoy estoy escribiendo porque tengo una gran peticion. Yo quiero que ustedes chicos y chicas se conviertan en uno y oremos por esas personas que perdieron sus familiares y amigos en Haiti. Tambien oremos por las victimas que todavia estan atrapadas entres las pilas de concreto. Y oremos todos juntos por las Bahamas, y las Antillas Mayores quienes recibieron desde ayer la alerta de maremoto. Yo espero que todos los que hayan recibido este mensaje, pero una vez mas no se olviden de orar por los que necesitan consuelo en estos momentos de dolor.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)

Enero 10, 2010

Hoy me doy cuenta de las cosas que quiero,
Hoy me doy cuenta de las personas a quienes quiero,
Hoy mi vida cambia de rumbo y me doy cuenta de las
maravillas que me brinda esta.
Tantos sufrimientos y tantas lagrimas ya hoy borradas.
Tantos sueños y metas ya cumplidas.
Hoy me rendiré ante los brazos de mi Señor y
diré gracias a mi madre por darme la vida.
Desde hoy viviré para mi y no para aquellos que un día
me tuvieron atada a un futuro incierto.
Hoy quiero seguir en el camino correcto y no desviarme.
Hoy quiero decir que vivo alegre y tranquila.
Pero mas que nada quiero decir al mundo que no dejare
de ser yo.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
Enero 05, 2010

Well, I wish to have one minute to tell you this. how this started? why you wanted me so much? If you didn't like or care about me why you came back for me? These are some of the questions that I wanted to ask you. When we were together I tried everyday to stay away from you, but you were like a drug that I couldn't resist. I tried to make you go away one time because I was afraid that you could hurt me, but you came back to me. Did you know how hard it is to fight with myself cause I am deeply in love with you? Did you know how I was feeling? I made you believe that you were a mistake cause I can't be with you. And I felt awful when I finished what we have. I can't stop thinking about you, everyday I see you everywhere. I tried to text you, but I promised myself not even try it. I lye on my bed and when I close my eyes I see you again, not only that I think that I can feel the heat of your body. I can feel your arms pulling me to you, I can feel your lips press to mine, and I can feel your heart's beating. I open my eyes and you are not here. I have to forget. I need to forget. I try to forget. Everyday it is getting harder and harder cause It hurts me. I have to confess that I have started a new life with another person, but every time that I am with I call him by your name. Oh God! This is a torture and worst of everything is that you don't love me. (She drinks venom and she dies). Andry Vilorio (A.V.) Noviembre 25, 2009