Solo pensando y conociendo

Today I found myself and I don't need to be sad.
Today I started to enjoy my loneliness again,
I think that I lost the whole concept of being Andry
I am happy, perky,positive, shy, easygoing, and calm
I wanted to be perfect and good, but in the way I got lost.
I didn't smile anymore, and I didn't feel comfortable with myself.
I was just a character manage by people.
I left myself behind to please everybody, but nobody was there for me.
I hate hypocrisy, I hate fake friends...
I have realized that the person who loves me will accept me as I am
because I got tired of accepting everybody with their goods things and defects.
I have realized that I'll wait longer before to express my feelings for somebody.
I have realized that I won't make the same mistakes that committed in the past.
I have realized that I have nobody who got my back, and that I have only myself.
So, why should I waist my time in people, when I have myself.
why should I waist my love with men that won't appreciate it, even don't express their feelings, when I know that I deserve better.
why should I waist my energy working in a place that I don't feel happy anymore, when I have the potential and the knowledge to get another job.
It sounds cruel, but some people want to be raw with their words, why should I be the exception.
I have my knowledge, I have my heart full of love and I have myself, so I don't need to care about the people that wants to put me down, or people that gossip about me because all I can say is those people have envy of what I have and who I am.

Andry Vilorio (A.V.)
April 26, 2010